My first dreams of 2007 were ones where I was told that things are over. Utterly and completely over. That there was no more love left, only pain and hate. I almost don't know how I feel about this anymore. Is this really the case, or are dreams supposed to be the opposite of reality? The one person I used to be so close to now suddenly seems like...just an idea, a concept made up of different features. No sound, no feeling, nothing. If his silence is supposed to be an answer to my questions, then do these dreams serve to convey that message? I may have to start believing that this is so.

Ok. Heartbreak and scary dreams aside, it IS January 1. As much as I know from past experience that the effort might be futile, here are my new year's resolutions (really limiting them to 5 this year!!):

1) Work: After all these crappy months I've finally gathered enough strength to venture out again. Very exciting prospects ahead. Horoscope says this year is super good for Aries/ram in the professional arena, so GO MOOOOOO!!!!
2) Witch stuff: Must remember meaning to all cards to pass Level 3 test in spring. Finish Level 4 this year. Train to develop further psychic abilities and intuition. Help people and soothe their souls with my witch power!!!!
3) Keep healthy: As I only went back for one check-up in 2006, must learn not to avoid hospitals and to confront own health issues. Also see Chinese medicine doctor and keep up with yoga. SLEEP EARLIER....
4) Financial management. Enough said.
5) Be kind, optimistic, and true to everyone.

Looks less daunting this year, haha. Also must keep writing. It gives me so much strength to be able to express everything here, despite the tears and the hurt that accompany my words. May this blog start to take on some happiness and laughter. I'm working hard on it!!

Oh and guitar!! It's hard to tell how good I might get at this point, but at least it provides the opportunity to concentrate fully on something. I'm taking it one step at a time. Current goal: master Happy Birthday.

First purchase of the new year: parakeets or a camera.