My dear friends,

Thank you for all your words of love, care, and encouragement. I've only started to realize how much my blog worries some of you. Please know that it is not my intention to do so. Besides your comfort and support, writing in here has become my biggest refuge. I try to heal myself with words, and everything I write does help to make me stronger. I know I sound like a crazy and depressed maniac sometimes, with huge mood swings that can take place over a few hours. But I'm trying very hard to find peace of mind, and I realize it's a challenge that will make me a better person.

I learned the other day that my Tarot card for this year (the card whose meaning represents my purpose and lesson for 2007) is Death, which portrays a change and transformation, a regeneration into a new mode for growth and expansion. It is the death of the the old, and birth of the new. This is the outlook I'm working hard to carry with me.

Therefore please don't worry. I try not to exaggerate things but sometimes I just need to spice it up a little, kick it up a notch so maybe some random guy reading this will want to make it into a movie. Or something impossible like that. Ha.

Thanks again. You all rock the party.

Love,
M.