someone messaged me on friendster and reminded me to change my profile as i'm not "in a relationship" anymore.

quite numb as to how to react to this. am i really not in a relationship anymore? i don't feel i am. or else i wouldn't wake at 6:30am and feel empty. but i don't feel i'm not because i was never told it's over. people keep saying action speaks louder than words and i do feel there's truth to this, but why is it so hard? for me, why is it "it ain't over until he says it's over?"

i think i need someone to hold me for a while.

might extend my stay in this city i never quite liked, although i am not sure exactly why. could this be where everything starts over for me? oh boy i kind of hope not....