went to library at oakridge today and got replacement library card. i had originally intended to get a new one, considering the one i had was lost and it feels like i've been away long enough to have left no track record. but it turned out i'm still on the computer system, and had an outstanding late fee of 2 dollars for two books i checked out on homosexuality and cross-dressing in southeast asian societies (library guy looked at me funny as he tracked my records). that was 2001. my past is catching up with me.

checked out jonathan safran foer's extremely loud & incredibly close, and a book on writing life stories. it's kind of a theme i'm going through with my reading materials, a lot of autobiographical or creative non-fiction things, such as persepolis. i'd like to start writing about other people (as i've written enough about myself). i need to figure out a way so that readers won't be able to identify (easily) my characters from my real life circle of acquaintance, because this is how writers lose friends and live forevermore in loneliness and eventually become depressive maniacs and kill themselves.

i think i need to head downtown more often. it does give a more upbeat, busy vibe to this otherwise chilaxing city, and i feel more alive when i'm there. plan to start regular visits to the central lib with pillow, water bottle and snacks and do some serious studying for this year's upcoming editorial projects and hopefully journalistic ventures. lor says the temperance lesson means boundary is set and target is outlined. i do feel self is zooming in on specific goals and it feels wonderful to be able to work hard towards something new.

it's getting warmer so i'm going back to the pool this week. also bought lululemon top finally with christmas gift certificate and therefore no excuse to skip at-home yoga due to lack of appropriate stretchy yogawear. it must be mentioned that i've been quite liberal with bubble tea intake. i've had more in two weeks than i did in taiwan for two years, and that's the birthplace for it!! must stop.