valentine's day

valentine's day has never played a significant part in my life--many others have meant more, ranging from mid-autumn festival to april fool's day. it was never a point of celebration while i was in a relationship, nor a reason for distress and disappointment when i wasn't in one (or, am not). when i was in taipei, tv and newspapers were filled with valentine venues and menus, activities, warnings and precautionary measures. on the day itself, traffic ensued and restaurants were packed. the whole day smelled like a merchant-conspired scheme.

because of the long distance and erratic nature of the relationship, valentine's day for me was never really that big of a deal. i did not feel more loved on this day, nor more special, nor more celebrated. it went by like any other. last year i had a fantabulistic time with girlfriends, and this year around, it's only a good excuse for me to make some chocolate-covered strawberries and distribute lollipops to friends, thinking that days like this are best downplayed, with cool indifference and as little acknowledgment as possible.

except right now i DO start to wonder if i'll ever find a person to actually spend this day with, for this day to mean something even if i don't receive any flowers or eat at a romantic restaurant or stuff my face with chocolates. i wonder where he is at the moment, what he's like, or if such person even exists. if he does, i wonder what's so special about him that will make me like him a lot. i don't really like people that easily, it seems. so i guess he'll probably be pretty darn special. i'm losing the point of this paragraph but it makes me happy to be writing girly nonsense like this once in a while.

and quite excited, actually. in love, anything is possible and, as adidas has taught us, impossible is nothing.

(again) "If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life"--Oscar Wilde

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DEAR PEOPLE!!!