it's friday!! and last day of august!! on the way home from work tonight (9:30pm, not too shabby compared to 11 yesterday), i did something i haven't done in a very very long time and bought beer from 7-eleven. then i came home to a very pretty meal prepared by mommy dear, who i haven't really talked to since before she left for vancouver, and read an Us magazine i picked up at van airport 10 days ago. then for 20 minutes i petted the dog and played a game of cushion tug-of-war, while making silly jokes with dad who went into retirement, a significant event that went completely unnoticed, while i was working like mad this past week.

now, listening to the soundtrack of love actually, joni mitchell sings "i've looked at life from both sides now." funny how that has been the theme of this past month for me. it's really been about being a little crazy, going all laid-back and then pushing myself to the limits, about searching for possibilities and finding out whether they're meant for me, about revisiting a past that could also be a future. It's also about being nervous, doubtful, lonely, and scared, but at the very same time excited, happy, comforted and fulfilled. it's a month-ful of contradictions and extremities, an emotional rollercoaster, if you will. draining, but memorable.

and i find, even with the big hair, the expensive skinny jeans and the seemingly glamorous job, i'm still just a happy person who doesn't mind a simple life, after all. i've seen busy and complicated. i don't think i like it. it makes me feel a bit....ick about myself.

so a big pat on the shoulder for myself for another well-lived month. to celebrate and congratulate, i'm going into a hot bath with my beer now. going to throw in a lemon-scented ice cream looking bath bomb thingy too =)