Last week I strangely got back in touch with an acquaintance on msn, out of the blue. I've never even met him. As if it's destined that I have company on this healing journey, he told me he's going through the exact same thing. When I read his words I think about myself from 3 months ago, so much in love and so much in despair, weighed down by faith and belief that this love is real. And when people start to tell you things, to let go and to move on, and you get only silence back from the other end, you start to question if you're alone in this maze while the other person has already found his way out.

I don't know what to tell him. Can't say "let go" or "keep faith" because either way, it's wrong. Perhaps one of these days he'll get to where I am, where you just can't do much about it anymore, and you just hope the other person is happier, and that one day you'll be happy again too. That's just how it works. It takes two to tango, in good times and bad times. You can't do it alone.

So yes, relationships are mysteries. We think we have everything figured out and under control, and all you have to do is proceed with caution. But no. I learned that we're all individuals with different lessons to learn, and sometimes you have someone to go through it with you, sometimes you don't. You're lucky if you do, but it's not so horrible if you find yourself alone, treading slowly. But you always, always miss that person.

Hang in there, my sad ones.