1:58am, Saturday, November 11, 2006

I'm convinced that I'm destined to be lacking in sleep for my tarot classes, as in, puff-faced with dark eye circles. But only because I get so inspired to write the night before. It's like, as Jenny said, the universe conspires to make it happen.

What I learned today, after teaching two students in a row and reading cards for 3 people, was that this has been a good day because I HELPED PEOPLE. I helped them achieve their goals, however slow their pace and small their steps, and overcome hurdles thrown in their ways. Be it hearing disabilities, difficulties in expressing their thoughts, indecisiveness, search for confirmation or lack of courage, what I've been trying to do is helping them face the problems and figure out a way, well, out. I've come to realize that my own belief, the strength and braveness I've been blessed with, are powerful tools to influence and guide. It's an exhilarating feeling to know you're in possession of such power, but as Uncle Ben (of Peter Parker aka Spiderman) said, with greater power comes greater responsibility. That's how I feel as a teacher and a tarot reader. These are jobs bearing responsibilities, more than anything else I've done in my life.

And so I'm no longer telling people I'm“unemployed." Because what I am is employed by myself. I'm not working for a company or an organization. I'm not responsible of making money or achieving goals for other people. I'm working for ME, and the people I care about, the people who trust me with a part of their lives. And that, to me, is the most rewarding career of all.