lesson of the chariot

this is my first entry after the lunar new year. happy year of the tiger. grrrr.

this year, i'm going to be learning the lesson of will and determination, which are values and traits known to most and practiced by many, but have not exactly been mottos of my life. in my life, most things have come easy, thanks to my parents, people i've met who have been kind to me, and sometimes, my own choices. but i've learned that this needs to change if i want things to be different. i feel stronger gradually and my feet are on the ground, i am more confident of my choices and thoughts. what i'm missing is an inner strength and belief that my efforts WILL be rewarding. this is quite foreign to me, but i'm excited about it, to see what comes out of not quitting (or not starting, for that matter). whatever happens in the end, at least i think i'll feel pretty ok about myself.