this is going to make absolutely no sense

it appears that i have gotten myself into what you might call a sticky situation. it will pain me, in no definite terms, to say "yes" and yet, "no" might not be taken for an answer without a consequence. since when did things get this complicated? and more puzzlingly, how?

as mind-boggling as it is, i am somewhat intrigued by how events will unfold, whatever my answers will be. it's the kind of curiosity that kills the cat, but i feel like entering a new realm of "adult situations" that requires a different set of thinking and principles which i am quite eager to develop.

and i know i should learn to be a "bigger" person. in fact i have always tried to be "the bigger person." but i am starting to wonder a little bit about the bigger person concept, mainly because i notice that a lot of the times it is the smaller person that wins. and then the loser sort of just shrugs the shoulder and walks away, saying "oh but i'm the bigger person." maybe it's just a self-healing technique? maybe it's just all in the head?

today i wish for more wisdom and kindness of the heart, and that after i make decisions with the wisdom and kindness of the heart i will have acquired, i'll still be happy, content, unscathed.